For this year , the most blissful gift for me is you girls . I know you girls since years ago and the friendship was so strong that when other people talk bad about you , i get so angry to even quarrel and end my friendship with them , so strong that we plan our future together and so deep that i cried so hard when our friendship became likes this. For this past few weeks , i would not deny that me and Jiamin's friendship faded so much that there were completely no text/chats for us . To be trueful , it's because i was disappointed that she happened to lose her temper on me on one random day and i don't know why , i apologized and we were still okay ( i gave in and apologized eventho i didn't know where i'm wrong at cause i know i don't wanna lose this friendship ) But she kinda replied me real l8 and didn't turn up for our next few outings , my heart sank completely . Thaina ah thaina , i thought of texting and confronting you but i don't know how to , i don't wanna leave scars behind this friendship , i want em to still be really good friends and can still be like before . I did thought of confronting you but as i realized that you were avoiding some outings , i rather let us fade . In between , i really did felt sad depressed and angry . I ranted a lot of twitter , probably you didn't even realized but deep down i still haven't let go . On 11/11/11 , i did thought of sending you the last text and probably stop contacting and move on with my own life . But when you text me back with a long and sweet text , i remembered many things and instead of crying , i smiled and that night i really slept happily . I did wanted to reply you but i know there are going to be endless words and topics so i would rather tell you here . For the past 9/10 years of our friendship , i neglected you and probably hurt you but deep down i really loved you as a sister . I lost MeiJun and i told myself , i wanna let others know that ' me and Jiamin n Singning are bestfriends ' , not me Jiamin n Singning were bestfriends ' . But now , it's so hard that i don't know what to do or even improve the situation .... *sigh*
Thaina minmin , probably fate only brought us till here and probably there's no way to continue . Altho now or in future we won't contact / meet up so much or even do so , you must remember I'm Janice , the fucking bitchy girl who plans many stupid and evil stuffs but she really do loves her loved ones . You are one of my loved ones ^^ . If one day you are tired or sad , remember you have your pillar of support here , me . It's okay if i'm not there when you are happy , but when you are sad , i shall be there . You don't express your feelings so often and you always keep everything to yourself but don't bottle up all your feelings anymore k ? Tell them to your new girlies or if you want , me (': . I wish and hope you the best , we shall all move on already right bbg ? Shall just leave this here as memories , hehe anyway all our memories are already in my heart , they won't disappear ok ! Lastly , i'm always here 24/7 k ? xoxoxo .
No comments:
Post a Comment